Have you ever felt being 'broken'? There are so many incidents in life which leave us being broken. Either it is a broken heart from relationship, broken dreams, broken family, broken financially, and so on. The truth is .. we live in a broken and fallen world. No wonder that there just things in our lives which inevitably hurt us. But here is the good news .. God is able to use your brokenness and turn it around to become His greatest glory!
In brokenness season, there is a tendency for us to respond it with either self-pity or bitterness. Self-pity is a feeling that we are the most pitiful person in this world. It is seeing that there is nothing good in our lives and we mourn over it all the time. When self-pity overwhelms us, it is hard to see the fingers of God in our current situation. It seems like we are in a very big problem but cannot see any way out. That's why we can only mourn over it. Self-pity seems harmless on its very first stage. It seems so natural to pity ourselves for all the calamities that happen to us. And it may feels ... good. But what we don't realize is ... it gives the devil a foot hold in our hearts. It is like a seed of cancer which keeps spreading all over our bodies. There will come a point where we have no ability to be thankful at all to our beloved Creator. It causes us losing our joy, and hence makes us us losing our strength. " ... Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." (Nehemiah 8:10). Thereby, as natural as it may seem, self-pity should nnot linger even for a second in our lives. The cure for self-pity is simply shifting our concerns from 'self' to 'others'. If you desire a compassion, give a compassion to others. It may sounds weird, but God really gives more abundantly to a cheerful giver.
The other 'natural' response to brokenness season is by being bitter. Our hearts does not become bitter automatically when people hurt us. Bitterness is our choice. No one can affect our hearts' condition unless we allow them to. In every situation we can always choose whether we will be 'bitter' or 'better'. The fact is, I never see any bitter person is thankful and a thankful person bitter. It may sounds strange, but thankfulness is the medicine to bitterness. "Give thanks in ALL circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." (1 Thess 5:18) Of course, give thanks in the midst of trouble will be so unnatural for us. Some even do it just with a burdened heart simply because they have to (for example they try to obey God). But here is the view point. It is a matter of acknowledging His goodness in our present trouble. Yes, we can admit to God that, "I don't understand it Lord. But I still believe in your purpose. Keep doing on what You do." It's a whole different perspective which can set us free from a bitter heart. Another important key to be free is releasing forgiveness for those who hurted us. It's difficult and it will take time. But if we are willing to forgive, there is a hope.
We need to be sensitive on asking God instead of "Why God?" but "What do you want me to learn from this?" God is in control. He never allows circumstances occur in our lives without any purpose. If you have prayed and nothing changes, maybe God wants to change you first. Instead of seeing the ugly sides of other people and circumstances, ask humbly to the LORD to help you see your own heart's condition. Is there any unwillingness to forgive and reconcile? Is there any bitterness? God is more than willing to reveal your heart and His plan for you as you come in humbly before Him.
Though it is hard to comprehend, but brokenness season is the only place we can truly know who God is. It is the only season where we can truly feel His presence in a very intimate way. As a popular quote says, "God does not promise you explanations about everything, but He promises you to walk through the pain." It is a place where depending upon God is the only choice we have. And that in the end leads us to a deeper relationship with Him. "Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent." (John 17:3) Shouldn't it all that matters in this life?
As impossible as it sounds, God uses people who are 'weak'. People who acknowledge that they are nothing without their God. People who come humbly upon Him and surrender their independence to become fully dependent to Him alone. Psalm 51:17 says, "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise." And sometimes, it takes a series of circumstances to bring us up to this point. Peter was being broken for his failure by denying Christ three times. He wept bitterly. Yet God touched his brokenness by asking "Do you love me?" three times (John 21:15-17)and in the end used him so powerfully to preach the good news. The fact is, we simply cannot be broken where things are running so good in our lives, can we? Be glad if God breaks your heart right now, for it always meant for a greater purpose beyond your imagination. Yes, you cannot see it now, but one day you will, and you will be amazed.
Today,if you are in brokenness season, I believe that God wants to speak comfort for you. "For the LORD will comfort Zion, He will comfort all her waste places; He will make her wilderness like Eden, and her desert like the garden of the Lord; joy and gladness will be found in it, thanksgiving and the voice of melody." If a desert can be turned to become a garden in the hands of God, than your brokenness is more than able to be used to proclaim His glory too. It will be just like a dream, but God's promise will come true as we respond to our brokenness rightly. Do not harbor anger, self-pity, nor bitterness in this season. Just offer your sacrifice of a broken heart, sincere trust in God, and thanksgiving for His goodness. As you respond in God's ways, you will more likely to end in God's plan.
"If you pour yourself out for the hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted, then shall your light rise in the darkness and your gloom be as the noonday. And the LORD will guide you continually and satisfy your desire in scorched places and make your bones strong; and you shall be like a watered garden, like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail. And your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt; you shall raise up the foundations of many generations; you shall be called the Repairer of the Broken Walls, the restorer of streets to dwell in." (Isaiah 58:10-12)
One day, in the midst of your current ruins, God will built a new home. He is the ultimate Repairer of Broken Walls, broken soul, broken hearts. He is the ultimate healer. If you respond correctly, pouring your life to serve others instead of focusing on your own wounds, releasing forgiveness, and willing to surrender to God, this will be your destiny. God is more than able to heal the broken hearts, if you give Him all the pieces.