There are days in our lives when we feel unloved and unworthy. In fact, there are so many people out there who are still trying so hard to gain acceptance, love, appreciation, compliments, etc from others. It has become humans' necessity in life to simply just being accepted. We may struggled with it once we were just children. We may struggle with it now in our various relationship with girlfriend/boyfriend, spouse, parents, boss, and many more. Does it sound familiar to you? It seems like there is a big hole in your life which is screaming to be filled with love, love, and love. You may think that once this person does this and that for you, you will find it be enough. But the truth goes ... it is never enough.
I remember the days when I used to feel unloved. At that moment, I questioned about God's love for me. But in one session of Youth Camp in my campus, one of the speaker told me the story when God made a woman. Its last sentence of the story changed the whole course of my life. Here is the story :)
By the time the Lord made woman, He was into the Sixth day of working overtime. An angel appeared and having conversation with the Lord.
Angel: "Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
Lord: "Have you seen the spec sheet on her? She has a lap that can hold two children at one time and that disappears when she stands up, has a kiss and hug that can cure anything from a scrapped knee to a broken heart, and she is doing all of these with two hands!"
Angel: "Only with two hands, Lord? No way!"
Lord: "Oh, it's it the hands that are the problem. It's the three pair of eyes that mothers must have!"
Angel: "Why does she have three pairs of eyes?"
Lord: "Yes, one pair of eyes are to see through the closed door as she asks her children what they are doing even though she already knows. Another pair in the back of her head are to see what she needs to know even though no one thinks she can. And the third pair are here in the front of the head. They are for looking at an errant child and saying that she understands and loves him or her without even saying a single word.
Angel (tried to stop the Lord): "This is too much work for one day, wait until tomorrow to finish!"
Lord: "But I can't! I am so close to finish this creation that is so close to my own heart. She already heals herself when she is sick and can feed a family on a pound of hamburger and can work 18 hours a day."
Angel (moved closer and touched the woman): "But you have made her so soft, Lord."
Lord: "She is soft. But I have also made her tough. You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
Angel: "Will she be able to think?"
Lord: "Not only will she be able to think, she will be able to reason and negotiate."
Angel (touched the woman's cheek): "Oops, it looks like you have a leak with this model. I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
Lord: "That's not a leak. That's a tear!"
Angel: "What's the tear for?"
Lord: "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her loneliness, her grief, and her pride."
Angel (impressed): "You are a genius, Lord! You thought of everything, for woman is truly amazing."
Lord: "Yes, she is. Women have strengths that amaze men. They carry children, they carry hardships, they carry burdens but they hold happiness, love, and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up for injustice. They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there us a better solution. They go without new shoes so their children can have them. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They have sorrow at the loss of family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strengh left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes. They'll drive, fly, walk, run, or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin! Women do more than giving birth. They bring joy and hope. They give compassion and ideals. Women have a lot to say and a lot to give."
"But she has one weakness ..."
Angel: "What is it Lord?"
Lord: "She often forgets how worthy she is..."
I used to forget that I am worthy. Just like most people, we grow up in an environment where love may not be verbalized nor be shown expressively. It causes children to doubt parents' love, wives doubt husbands' love, and at last God's children doubts God's love. And as our confidence of God's love is shaken, we are most likely to end up in downward spiral. We question about the goodness of God, life and its purpose. That was why this story became a huge turning point for me. For the very first time, I was being reminded about that I am worthy in God's eyes always but it's just my eyes which fail to recognize it.
You are God's beloved. When the world tries to convince that you are not, He constantly wooing you to win your heart. God is a Father to the fatherless, friend to the friendless, and husband to the husbandless. In fact, although you have a nice father, a great friend, and a lovely spouse, Jesus Christ still surpasses them all. He is the one who keeps being faithful as the world lies through their teeth. He is the ONLY ONE who has the capacity to fill the longings in your heart. In Jesus, you are loved and accepted. Not because of what you've done, but because of who He is, Love.
But now, this is what the LORD says-
he who create you, Jacob,
he who formed you, Israel:
"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
Cush and Seba in your stead.
Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give people in exchange for you,
nations in exchange for your life.
Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
I will bring your children from the east
and gather you from the west.
I will say to the north, "Give them up!"
and to the south, "Do not hold them back."
Bring my sons from afar and my daughters
from the ends of the earth-
everyone who is called by my name,
whom I created for my glory,
whom I formed and made.
I, even I, am the Lord, and apart from me there is no savior.
Yes, and from the ancient days I am he.
No one can deliver out of my hand.
When I act, who can reverse it?"
God is the One who never gives up on you although you even want to quit. You are His beloved and He will not let you go. He will protect you. For your destiny is to be loved by Him.
"Letting yourself be loved by God is more important
than loving God" -Brennan Manning